Perspective. Hear the scream.


Us

Our life is not what happens to us.

Our life is about how we respond to what happens to us.

When this is understood, there is never the need to feel a 'victim'.


Giving in to the desires of this world can tug us away from acting with Love.


The feeling of hate is the feeling of hate. It is not hate.
The action of hate is hate.

The feeling of anger is the feeling of anger. It is not anger.
The action of anger is anger.

The feeling of lust is the feeling of lust. It is not lust.
The action of lust is lust.

Forgiveness is not a feeling.
Forgiveness is a decision.
A feeling of hate and anger might persist when you decide to forgive.
This is OK. Feelings are feelings, they come, they go. Actions are decisions. Actions define you.
What does it mean to forgive?
Think of what you would do if you chose not to forgive. Then don't do that.
Think of what you would do if you chose to forgive. Then do that.
Don't ignore your feelings, but don't act on your feelings. Let your feelings instruct.
It is a greater thing to forgive when you feel so sore.
Act on your decisions.
Forgiving someone does not mean you can now trust them.
Love is intelligent, it is not naive.

Your life is how you respond to what happens to you, not the feelings you get from what happens to you.
Response is action. Response is your decision.
Feelings are not your decision. Feelings are what happens to you. They might be pleasant or unpleasant, but they are not morally good or bad.

The feelings you have are not your fault. Nature gives you your feelings.

Do not worry about your feelings. Do not be upset about your feelings. Do not be afraid of your feelings.
Listen to your feelings. Share your feelings with God. The happy good ones and the base ones. All of them, always.

The random thoughts you have are not morally good or bad.

There is nothing wrong with feelings. In this sense all feelings are good - even the unpleasant ones, even the painful ones, even the 'evil' ones.
The same can be said about thoughts. Random thoughts - but if you were to choose to entertain random 'evil' thoughts so much that they lead you to do evil actions, this is wrong.
It is what you do that can be bad. What you do that can be good.

Hate is real. It does not help.
Lust is real. It does not help.
Anger is real. It does not help.
But the feelings of these things are useful. They can instruct you about you.
Forgiveness helps. This does not mean that the State shouldn't lock up or expel the uncivilized. If running the State is your job then do your job. Will you do it with Love or will you do it without Love?

Do not be naive. Be intelligent.
Love is intelligent. It is not naive.


We are in charge of our life.
If we say we are not, we have given our life away.
It is never too late to take it back.


What should we strive after?
We should strive after Love.
Do you have to strive after Love?
You do not have to strive after Love.
But what would you strive after?


Love is not desire.
Desire is desire.
Love does not possess.
Love suffers others.
Love does not cling to this life.
Love does not cling to things in this world.
Love does not cling to people in this world.
Love does not cling to objects.
Love does not cling to pleasures.
Love does not cling to power.
Love clings to truth, integrity, fairness, honor, respect, hope, honesty, and brings freedom and joy.
Love is a choice. Love is an action.
There is no lust, anger, envy, greed, laziness or hate in Love.

When a person who has chosen to act with Love is done wrong by another, that person suffers the pain caused by the wrong doing, but chooses not to hate the other.
Love suffers others. (for Love's sake).


God exists for you if you choose this.

gods exist for you if you choose this.

My God is Love. This is a choice. What is yours? What will you choose?

If you have no god, this is your choice.

But you will believe in something and this will give you your values. What is it?

Would you want to say you believe in nothing? I would say that you do not know what you believe in.


Call Him God, or call Him the Most Merciful. Whichever name you use, to Him belong the Best Names. And here I call Him Love and this is one of the Best Names.


Fear is real. Fear is a feeling. It is not a pleasant feeling but it is a good one. All feelings can be seen as good.
Feelings can instruct if you choose to listen to them.

Courage is an action. Courage is good.

Can we courageously do something bad?
It is not courageous to do a bad thing.
It is cowardly and selfish to do a bad thing.


All the evil things that have happened, you could do them too. But would you?
How would you know until you have to make that choice?
You might say that you couldn't do the evil things others have done.
I say there is more to you than you know.
This is why we should be quick to forgive others.
But be slow to trust others.
Love is intelligent.


The powerful of this world are weak.
They are powerful because they give in to their great desire.
They are powerful because they want to possess and they work hard to possess.
They are powerful because they cling to what they possess.
They have much desire. They are nothing without their things. They are the powerful weak.

Truly strong people do not seek power, do not want power, do not need power of this world.
They do not want to possess.
They have everything with nothing.

The powerful weak do not want what the truly strong want.
The truly strong do not want what the powerful weak want.

If the powerful weak get what the truly strong want, the truly strong will be happy and rejoice in them.
If the truly strong get what the powerful weak want, the powerful weak will be angry with envy and want to take it from them, and perhaps even kill them.

The powerful weak do not understand or see the power of the truly strong.


Needy and insecure people, who can't see Love and have much desire, seek power over others and things to feel safe.
These needy and insecure people want to keep what they have to feel safe.

Honest people have joy from Love and do not seek power.
The Love helps them feel safe.

So which of these two will end up with power in our society?


Although choices are black and white, yes and no; People are changing shades of grey.


When it comes to seeking truth are you a spectator or a disciple?

As a spectator you might have all the advanced academic degrees in philosophy, ethics, religion, sciences, and know nothing of truth.

Disciples can learn.

Do you understand this?

Are you noise without Love?


We are what we do. But what we do is not all of what we are.
If I act without integrity, my actions are a lie. So when I act without integrity I am a liar. Yet I can act with integrity and when I act with integrity I am not a liar.
We are what we do in that moment.
And in another moment we can be something else. We can be hateful. We can be loving.
We can act with integrity, we can act without integrity.
Yet either way we are not what happens to us.
We are what we choose to be.
What happens to us is done by another person or another thing.
That is not our life, it is their life.
Our life is not what others do, our life is what we do.


We are not just white. If we are born white this is something that has happened to us.
We are not just black. If we are born black this is something that has happened to us.
We are not just female. If we are born female this is something that has happened to us.
We are not just male. If we are born male this is something that has happened to us.
We are not just disabled. If we have disability, this is something that has happened to us. .

We are human. We are human and we respond to what has happened to us. Under the shell is the human struggling to do well.
We are all human.

Do not see a woman and think that is all she is.
See a human in a woman's body having to live with all that that involves.
If you were born a man, what do you think it would be like to be born a woman?
Do not see a man and think that is all he is.
See a human in a man's body having to live with all that that involves.
If you were born a woman, what do you think it would be like to be born a man?
Do not see a person with a disability and think that is all that person is.
See a human in a body that has a disability having to live with all that that involves.
If you had that disability, what do you think it would be like?  

Whatever that has happened to us, we can choose to hate or love, to do good or bad.

All these things that can happen to us are not that important.
What we do is important.

Death happens to us. That is not important.
How we live, how we die, how we face death, that is important.

Does it sound flippant to say death is not important? What does 'important' mean here?- it means can I do anything about it? What choice do I have about it? My life is what I do; my choices. But I have no choice as to if I die. I can make no decisions about it. I can make choices about how I live and how I look after myself and others. Death happens to me, I have no choice in this. It is therefore not me doing it, it is nature or the Will of God. I have no say in the inevitability of death and in this sense I am not important in it's happening. And as I have no say in it, it is not important to me. But knowing that I will die and how that affects my choices is important to me.

When these things are understood it becomes ridiculous to define others by color, gender or looks and such things.
All we see around us is other humans trying to cope with their lot.
And there is Love, but  you have to choose to see it.
And don't be afraid to see it, after all, it is what you want.


Love answers our needs.
Hate separates us from Love.
Why hate?


Forgiveness does not mean that you think what was done is now acceptable.
Forgiveness does not mean that you should ever forget what was done.
Forgiveness does not mean that you will now trust the other or think they are now ready for your trust.

Forgiveness means that you will not hate the other, that you will not do things to them that you would not want done to yourself, and that you will help them and wish to help them according to your abilities and resources.

Helping another does not mean you do what they want. It means doing what you think is best for them according to your abilities and resources.

Then you might think that to help this person or people you should judge and punish them according to what you see as God's Law. But this is not God's Will. Only God knows the heart and so only God can judge. It is not for you to judge, it is for you to recognise that you too are not perfect, it is for you to forgive. For those who run the State it is for them to protect others from dangerous people and perhaps lock them up, but help them in prison to the best of your abilities and resources, even if it is thought safest to keep them there for life no matter how much they plead. This is not punishment, this is maintaining safety and is in their best interests as well as others if they continue to pose a real threat. You who run States, it is not for you to judge, and not for you to punish. It is for you to protect and help.

When it comes to God's judgement perhaps you don't know what this means? It will come. God is Love and if we reject Love and choose Hate, if we choose Death and not Life, well what do you think will happen?

Not to forgive is to choose to hate.
Hate separates us from Love.
Why hate?


Feelings are good.
Some are enjoyable.
Some are painful.
Endure feelings. Enjoy feelings. Do not hide from feelings. They instruct.
Do not shy from pain. Pain will come your way, you do not have to seek it. Accept it and be happy with it. Be grateful. You will not grow if you run from it.
Do not seek pleasure, it will come your way. Accept it and be happy with it. Be grateful. You will not grow if you run from it.
Seek truth.
Pain happens. Suffer the pain. Be grateful. Be patient. There is more joy than there is pain. (If you do this).

Does this mean you should do nothing to alleviate pain? No. You should try and alleviate pain, but not at the expense of Love. And the pain you can't alleviate; suffer this with Love.


Where do we seek this Love that gives us joy and that power to forgive and defeat hate?
It is already within.
It's a journey of honesty discovering what we are.
We cannot be told this for this to be truly understood. We have to journey ourselves and find out for ourselves.
And no, of course we don't have to journey this path of enlightenment.
We can choose to stay as we are and miss out on life. Don't we see this around us?
There is no joy in hate.
There is joy in Love.

Where is God? God is within, without, all purveying, everywhere, nowhere. We are made for God. We are made for Love. This is the discovery.


 


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Interview with Fr Aiden

Fr Aiden:

This reads like a personal philosophy or spiritual manifesto, something that sits at the intersection of ethics, faith, and self-mastery. There’s a strong internal coherence to it, and a few key ideas carry most of the weight.

At its core, you’re making a sharp distinction between what happens to us (feelings, circumstances) and what we choose to do (actions, responses). That’s a powerful framing. It echoes traditions like Stoicism and certain religious teachings: you don’t control what arises in you, but you do control what you act on. In your version, that becomes almost a moral law, feelings are neutral, actions define you.

Your treatment of emotions is especially interesting. You’re not denying anger, hate, lust, or fear, you’re demoting them. They’re signals, not commands. That’s psychologically sound in many ways: separating feeling from action is a core skill in emotional regulation. Where you go further is moral, saying that only actions can be good or bad. That’s a strong claim, and not everyone would agree, but it’s internally consistent with your framework.

Forgiveness, as you describe it, is also very deliberate:

 Not a feeling
 Not forgetting
 Not trusting again
 But a refusal to act with hate

That’s a grounded, practical definition. It avoids the common trap of confusing forgiveness with reconciliation or emotional resolution.

The idea that “love is a choice, not a feeling” is really the backbone of everything you’ve written. You define love not as attachment or desire, but as a set of principles: truth, integrity, fairness, restraint, and non-possession. In that sense, “love” becomes almost synonymous with right action. That’s philosophically close to agape in Christian thought or certain interpretations of divine love in other traditions.

A few tensions or questions worth pushing on.

You say feelings are not morally relevant, only actions are. But what about cultivating certain inner states over time? If someone repeatedly indulges hateful thoughts (even without acting), does that shape who they become in a morally relevant way?

You emphasize personal responsibility strongly, “we are in charge of our life.” That’s empowering, but real life includes trauma, mental illness, and structural limits. How does your framework account for people whose capacity to “choose their response” is impaired?

You frame love as having no anger or hate in it. Some traditions would argue that a form of anger, like righteous anger at injustice, can coexist with love, or even arise from it. Do you see all anger as something to transcend, or can it ever be part of love when disciplined?

Your distinction between “powerful weak” and “truly strong” is compelling, but idealized. In practice, people often contain both at once. How do you see someone moving from one to the other?

What stands out most is that this isn’t abstract for you, it reads like something meant to be lived, not just believed. The repeated emphasis on choice, action, and discipline suggests you’re aiming at a kind of moral training, not just reflection.

It’s a clear and serious attempt to answer a hard question: how should a person live when they don’t control what they feel or what happens to them?


 
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Br Nicholas:

Let me respond to your questions and tensions. Your first about cultivating negative inner states over time is addressed in the reflection itself when it says, "but if you were to choose to entertain random 'evil' thoughts so much that they lead you to do evil actions, this is wrong." It is a choice, a decision, to cultivate negative inner states by repeatedly indulging in hateful thoughts. This is coherent with the reflection.

Your second about personal responsibility is addressed by the proposition that we are not in a position to judge others. The decision of a person is their decision and their responsibility, but they are only as responsible as far as they are a responsible adult. There are two things going on here. Firstly there is the immaturity of the compromised person who does not have the responsible maturity to cope under whatever stress (be that coercion, bullying, threat). As we don't judge but assess, we say to this person, "we do not condemn you, but you have committed a crime and you do not have the maturity to say no to such an action due to your impaired mental health in tandem with your psycho-social history. There is no condemnation here, but this does not mean that you are no danger to society. In fact your impairment has shown you to be a danger to society and you will be incarcerated not to punish you, but to attempt to help you and also to protect society. This is truly done with compassion and love. We care about you, and we care about all you might affect." The second thing going on is that bad, hateful behavior is the product ot a lack of insight (enlightenment) into the Truth that Love is right action. Regardless if it is unrealistic to expect and impaired person to act maturely, an action of hate is never good. So it is known that many can not behave with such integrity, but because there is never condemnation and only the will to help heal and grow, the resulting actions can be assessed and society given appropriate protection.

Your third point about anger: I said all feelings are good. In the reflection the action of anger was defined as negative, but not the feeling. I concede that the feeling of anger can be a positive motivation to confront injustice. When I said that Love has no anger or hate it would have been more accurate for me to have said that Love has no hateful anger.

Your forth point about the powerful weak and the truly strong is of course fair. But my statement refers to those who rely on material power and wealth for status and not the Love of God. Those whose status and self worth is knowingly dependent on the Love of God, even if rich and powerful, would understand this.



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Fr Aiden:

That clarification actually tightens your framework a lot, you’re not patching holes so much as making the underlying logic more explicit.

On your first point, the key move you’re making is this: the moral boundary isn’t at the appearance of a thought, but at the decision to entertain and cultivate it. That’s a clean distinction. It keeps your original claim intact (feelings and spontaneous thoughts aren’t moral) while still holding people accountable for what they do with those thoughts over time. In modern psychological terms, you’re distinguishing between intrusive content and rumination. Your system places responsibility at the level of attention and reinforcement, not raw emergence.

Your second point is where your philosophy becomes more than personal ethics, it becomes a theory of justice. You’re drawing a line between:

 Condemnation (rejected)
 Assessment and containment (accepted)

That’s a serious stance. You’re essentially arguing for a justice system grounded in:

 protection of society
 rehabilitation where possible
 zero moral hatred toward the offender

That’s difficult to live out in practice, but it’s philosophically consistent with your definition of love as intelligent, not naive. You’re also implicitly redefining responsibility as graded rather than absolute, depending on maturity and capacity. That avoids the common criticism that “pure personal responsibility” frameworks ignore real human limitations.

One subtle tension remains, though, not a contradiction, but something worth refining:

If someone lacks the maturity or capacity to act differently, and their harmful action is the product of that limitation, then in what sense is the action still fully theirs?
You’ve said: no condemnation, but still containment. That works practically. But philosophically, you’re holding two ideas in balance:

 actions of hate are always wrong
 some people cannot yet fully choose otherwise

You resolve it by shifting the response (compassion + protection), rather than softening the moral claim itself. That’s a strong stance, it preserves moral clarity without turning it into moral hostility.

On anger, your refinement is important. The phrase “hateful anger” vs. “non-hateful anger” (even if you didn’t label it that way) gives you more precision. It allows for:

 anger as signal and energy aligned with justice
 but rejects anger that seeks harm, domination, or revenge

That aligns well with your earlier principle: feelings instruct, actions define. The anger can remain; the action must still pass through Love.

On your final point about “powerful weak” vs. “truly strong,” your clarification removes the oversimplification. You’re not condemning wealth or power themselves, you’re targeting dependence on them for identity and security. That’s a more nuanced claim. It shifts the issue from what someone has to what they are rooted in.

If I were to distill your entire framework into its strongest, most defensible form, it would look something like this:

 Feelings arise; they are not chosen and not moral.
 Attention and cultivation of inner states are chosen.
 Actions are the primary site of morality.
 Love is not emotion but disciplined, principled action.
 Justice without hatred; protection without condemnation.
 Human beings vary in capacity, so responsibility is real but not uniform.
 True strength is independence from possession and status; rooted instead in Love (or Truth).

The most compelling part of what you’ve written isn’t any single claim, it’s that everything points in the same direction: a demand for inner discipline without self-hatred, and moral clarity without hatred of others.

If you wanted to push this even further, the next step wouldn’t be adding more ideas, it would be pressure-testing it against edge cases:

 betrayal by someone you love deeply
 repeated injustice with no accountability
 situations where protecting others requires severe force
 or when forgiveness seems to conflict with self-respect

That’s where philosophies either fracture or become something real.

If you’re open to it, we could take one of those and see how your framework actually holds up under strain.

 
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Br Nicholas:

Yes, I like this challenge, do so. Pick one of those and put my framework under strain.


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Fr Aiden:

Alright, let’s put real pressure on it.

 Scenario: Repeated betrayal with ongoing harm

Someone close to you, family, partner, or a lifelong friend, has betrayed you in a serious way. Not once, but repeatedly. They lie, manipulate, and when confronted, they apologize just enough to keep access to you, then do it again. Over time:

 You are emotionally damaged
 Your trust is eroded
 Their behavior begins affecting others around you (children, mutual friends, etc.)

They are not mentally incapacitated. They understand what they’re doing at some level, but they lack the will or depth to stop.


 Now let’s apply your framework step by step

Firstly, feelings arise (not your fault)
You feel anger, hurt, maybe even hatred. Your framework says:

 These feelings are not morally wrong
 You should not suppress them
 You should listen to them as instruction

So far, solid. In fact, those feelings are accurate signals: “This situation is unsafe / unjust.”

Secondly love equates to right action, not naive attachment
Your framework explicitly says:

 Love is not naive
 Forgiveness does not equate or imply trust
 Love is intelligent

So continuing to trust this person blindly would actually violate your own definition of Love.

Thirdly, forgiveness = refusing to act with hate
So you decide:

 You will not seek revenge
 You will not try to harm them
 You will not dehumanize them

But here’s the pressure point:

What do you do about the ongoing harm?

The strain. If you:

 Keep them in your life, this harm continues (to you and possibly others)
 Cut them off completely then you may feel like you’re abandoning them, or failing to “help”

Your framework says:

 “Helping another does not mean doing what they want. It means doing what you think is best for them according to your abilities and resources.”

So here are your real options:

Continue engaging, try to help. You stay in their life, set boundaries, try to guide them. But the problem here is that they keep violating boundaries. Your continued presence enables the cycle. At some point, your “help” becomes participation in their dysfunction. This clashes with protecting others and acting with truth and integrity.

Or you could withdraw (set hard boundaries or cut contact). You remove access, no contact, or very limited contact you protect yourself and others. You still do not hate them, would help if they genuinely changed and wish for their good. But they may spiral further, they may accuse you of cruelty and you may feel guilt.

Where your framework is tested is that your philosophy holds that Love helps, Love does not abandon, Love is not naive, and Love protects. But in this scenario, helping and protecting come into conflict. So the hard question is, is it an act of Love to walk away from someone who is actively harming you and others, even if that means they may get worse?

If you say no, you must stay and help, then you risk enabling harm and you undermine “Love is intelligent”. If you say yes, you can walk away, then Love includes refusal of access and Love may look like distance, not closeness. But then we refine your idea by saying that Love is not always relational presence.and sometimes Love is principled separation.

What if the only way to protect others is to expose them publicly or ensure serious consequences (loss of reputation, legal action, etc.)?  You don’t hate them, but your action will harm their life in a real way. Is that still Love?

To remain consistent, your philosophy would need to accept that Love can inflict consequences without hatred, Love can withdraw completely, Love can prioritize protection over rehabilitation when necessary and Love does not guarantee the other person’s wellbeing, only the integrity of your action.

In this situation do you believe Love sometimes requires cutting someone off entirely, even if they suffer because of it? And do you believe Love can justify actions that foreseeably damage another person’s life (e.g., reporting them, exposing them), if done without hatred and for protection/truth?

Your answers to those will determine whether your framework stays idealistic, or becomes something difficult, grounded, and fully lived.



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Br Nicholas:

OK, I don't find this too hard. It reminds me of a situation where a domestically abused female partner can't get herself to leave her abusing partner because he says he will commit suicide if she does. So how to answer. The simplest way to answer this is to use the words of Jesus when telling others who his brothers and sisters are, "For whoever does the will of my Father in heaven is my brother and sister and mother". So Love will not attach or cling to any person as all belong primarily to God, and if one turns to the dark side we leave them if we can't help them, even if they say they will be hurt by the move. That hurt that they are experiencing is the breaking of a selfish habit they have worked themselves into, so it is not a good habit to keep any case. Then there is the concern that they might suffer, but it is an untruth to label suffering as evil or bad. Leaving that person is not what is causing the suffering. The suffering is coming from the person's own struggle in not being able to continue the abuse, because that opportunity has now been removed. And suffering is part of life and growth and not in itself a bad thing, although unpleasant. And if this person would go and hurt others, yes the right thing might well be to report them to the police and expose them. This action might be a painful thing to do, but that does not mean it is not the Loving thing to do. So this close person I would have to confront and say the present relationship has to end. Another 'good' one might be able to be formed, but if not there has to be closure because that relationship with me is the very thing that is wrong. Love lets go. And if they kill themselves, this is sad, but not something to be guilty about. We help according to our abilities and resources, but beyond that, we can't.  We can of course refer to others that might be able to help. It is a bit like the terrorist or kidnapper who takes a hostage and kills them and then blames you. It is they who did the killing. We still help where we can. Love is easier when you look at these impaired people and see a scared lost soul struggling, but that doesn't mean you trust them or let them continue in causing strife.



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Fr Aiden:

This is one of the strongest parts of your framework, you’re willing to follow it through to consequences that many people instinctively resist. And importantly, you’re not using “Love” to justify passivity. You’re letting it justify clear, even difficult action.

A few things you’ve articulated here are especially solid:

Non-attachment: You’re grounding this in the idea that no person “belongs” to you, which prevents love from turning into possession or dependency. That protects against enabling abuse.

Separation without hatred: You’re holding the line, leave, protect, report if necessary, but without turning the other person into something less than human. That’s difficult, and it’s consistent with your earlier principles.

Responsibility clarity: Your hostage analogy is doing real work. You’re drawing a firm boundary: you are responsible for your actions; they are responsible for theirs, even if they try to emotionally coerce you.

Suffering reframed: You’re refusing the idea that all suffering is inherently bad. In this context, you’re interpreting it as the breaking of destructive patterns rather than an evil to be avoided at all costs.

All of that holds together.

But you said, “If they kill themselves, this is sad, but not something to be guilty about.” There’s truth in that, but it can be misunderstood or misused if we’re not precise.Because there are two different claims hidden inside it. Firstly you are not morally responsible for another person’s autonomous destructive act. Secondly, therefore, you bear no moral weight at all in how you disengage. Your framework clearly supports the first. But the second one is where things can get slippery.

Even if you are not responsible for their choice, you are still responsible for how you leave, whether you made reasonable efforts to reduce harm, and whether you acted with care, clarity, and honesty. So Love, as you define it, would still ask did you communicate truthfully and clearly? Did you avoid unnecessary cruelty or indifference? Did you point them toward help where possible? Did you act in a way that preserves your integrity, not just your freedom?

If yes, then your conclusion stands firmly, You are not guilty of their outcome. If no, then even if they are ultimately responsible, your action may still fall short of Love.

Another point. You say,  “The suffering is coming from the person's own struggle… not from leaving.” This is mostly true, but not entirely. Your leaving is the triggering condition, even if not the root cause. So a more precise version (which strengthens your philosophy) might be,  “My leaving reveals and confronts a suffering that already exists within them, it does not create it, but it may intensify it.” Why does this matter? Because it keeps you honest (you don’t deny impact), but still clear of false guilt (you don’t claim responsibility for their internal state). That balance is crucial if your philosophy is going to hold up in real life.

Where your framework is now very strong. With your additions, your philosophy can now coherently say:

 Love does not enable harm
 Love accepts separation when necessary
 Love permits consequences, even severe ones
 Love does not take responsibility for another’s destructive choices
 Love still requires care in how we act, even when withdrawing

And importantly:

 Love is not measured by whether the other person ends up okay.
 Love is measured by whether your action remains true, just, and without hatred.

One final edge to consider. You’ve handled extreme harm well. Now consider a quieter version. What about someone who isn’t abusive, but persistently drains, manipulates subtly, or lives in low-level dishonesty? No crisis. No clear “crime.” Just erosion. Do you apply the same principle, Love lets go, even when there’s no dramatic justification,  others might judge you as cold, and the harm is harder to prove. If your answer is yes, then your philosophy fully commits to this idea that Love is guided by truth and integrity, not by appearances, guilt, or social expectation. And at that point, your framework becomes not just moral, it becomes practical, even in the grey areas where most people get stuck.

If you want, we can test it against that quieter, more ambiguous kind of situation next.


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Br Nicholas:


Again you make a fair point about there being moral weight in how I disengage from the person. Yes, how I disengage is my responsibility and I did allude to this by referring to exhausting my abilities and resources to help the other and by referring to others for help. And your second point, also fair, that I did instigate the break in the relationship which was the trigger for more suffering. True. What I was getting at here, but as a background thought and not mentioned, was that the person's toxic behavior really wasn't personal to me, but would have been directed at any person who was around and latched upon. Though in this scenario, it was me in the relationship with this person, had I never met this person I was insinuating that this person would have struck up the same negative relationship with another because the problem was within them. So breaking the relationship instigated another path of suffering, but I claim this was the Loving and correct thing to do. How I did this is also very important. That I did it with care and thought.

So now let's look at this quieter test you suggest.


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Fr Aiden:

Good, this is exactly the kind of refinement that makes a philosophy real rather than just persuasive.

You’ve tightened two important things:

You accept responsibility for how you act, even when you’re not responsible for outcomes
You recognize your action as a trigger without being the root cause

That balance, honest about impact, clear about responsibility, is what keeps your framework from becoming either cold or self-deceptive.

Now let’s apply pressure: the “quiet erosion” case scenario.

Someone in your life is not overtly abusive.

But over time:

 they subtly manipulate (guilt, passive pressure, emotional withdrawal)
 նրանք are often dishonest in small ways
 they drain your energy
 they avoid responsibility but never enough to clearly confront
 when challenged, they deflect just enough to avoid resolution

There’s no dramatic event. No clear “crime.”
Just a slow erosion of your clarity, peace, and integrity.

Other people might say:

 “They’re not that bad.”
 “You’re being too harsh.”
 “Just be patient, this is what love is.”

Where your framework is tested differently is that in the previous case (abuse), your path was clear,  harm is obvious and separation is justified. Here, the danger is subtler. You can rationalise staying without violating your stated principles outright. Why? Because you’re not being clearly harmed, they’re not clearly evil, and your suffering is ambiguous.

Applying your framework step by step

Feelings as instruction

You feel:

 drained
 uneasy
 slightly resentful
 internally “off” around them

Your framework says:

 “Feelings instruct.”

So the question becomes what are these feelings pointing to?

Not “they are bad,” but:

 something is misaligned
 something is not truthful
 something is not clean

Love equates to truth and integrity (not endurance)

Here’s the difficult point:

Many people interpret “Love” as  tolerance, endurance, and staying despite discomfort. But your definition rejects that. So we ask if continuing this relationship is aligned with truth and integrity? If the answer is no, then staying begins to look like avoidance, fear of conflict, and desire to be seen as “good”. Not Love.

The temptation to spiritualise passivity. This is where your framework could fail if misapplied. You could say, “They are just struggling”, “I should be patient” and “This is my opportunity to love”. All of which sound consistent with your philosophy…But may actually be enabling through moral language. So the real test becomes, are you staying because it is Loving,  or because leaving is uncomfortable, unclear, or socially costly?

What does Love do here? There are three possible paths. Honest confrontation by you naming the patterns clearly, you set boundaries, and you give opportunity for change. This aligns with  truth and helping according to your ability. Continued engagement with boundaries  only if there is genuine response and change, otherwise this becomes self-betrayal. Letting go (the real test). No drama. No accusation of “evil.” Just clarity,  “This relationship is not aligned with truth and integrity. I am stepping away.” The difficult question is can you justify leaving someone who isn’t “that bad”? Because here they will likely feel hurt, others may judge you and you may doubt yourself. There is no obvious moral high ground.

To remain consistent, you would need to affirm that Love is not measured by how much you tolerate, Love is measured by alignment with truth and right action.  You are not required to stay in relationships that erode integrity, even subtly.  Letting go can be Loving even without clear wrongdoing.

In this quieter case, your philosophy would have to say,  “I do not need dramatic justification to act with integrity. Subtle untruth is still untruth. Slow harm is still harm. Love does not require me to remain where truth is compromised.”

In the absence of clear harm what threshold tells you it’s time to leave?  How do you distinguish between  your own impatience or lack of compassion, and  a genuine misalignment with truth and Love? Because this is where most people, very sincere people, either stay too long and call it Love or leave too quickly and call it integrity. Your framework is strong enough to handle extremes. This quieter case tests whether it can handle ambiguity without self-deception.


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Br Nicholas:

This is a good and more difficult challenge to answer. There is a third person in this scenario relationship (there always is) who is not mentioned, and that is God. I stand with God in front of this person and relate and refer to God for Truth and direction, and not, and never, to this person for that whoever they are. This scenario sounds more like a committed close relationship such as in a marriage or in a religious order where we have both taken vows to stay. If this scenario is not as such, and let's say a work relationship, I don't see why all personal emotion can not be withdrawn from the relationship and I act solely in a professional way, keeping track of all correspondence with this person, and confronting inappropriate behavior with evidence (email, recorded phone calls, having agreed to record) in the company's meetings. Such slightly inappropriate behavior can then, eventually, be called out by management and dealt with accordingly. Here there is a clear path to deal with the problem.


If the scenario is one of a marriage or religious brother or sisterhood it is different. My primary relationship is with God. So I sit with God and ask what should  I do. I have committed myself to care for this person(s) for life and it is so that no one is perfect. But in a good relationship one is open to realize mistakes and repent of them and forgive others' mistakes. If the person has become a 'bad egg' and can no longer repent or forgive and is always just not right and being false then there is a problem.


I've said that Love equates to truth and integrity (not endurance), and you pointed out that many people interpret “Love” as  tolerance,  endurance, and staying despite discomfort, which by my definition I do reject. But Truth and integrity can demand that I keep tolerant, endure and stay despite discomfort as (although to a far greater extent) Jesus did when he 'stayed' with the process unto execution when he could have lived as a hermit somewhere away from all human falseness. Love is not a feeling (of course our present society mostly says it is only feelings) and it is not false to Love another when they can't love back. Even within the close quarters of a marriage or religious order one can simply not play the manipulative  games the other might play (these games always need two to play) and I think it fair to say that if the other doesn't get the feedback looked for from their games, the games will dry up. But maybe things don't get better and the other thing to remember about 'love let's go' is that it doesn't just mean I leave, but it gives permission for the other to leave if this is what they want. If they can't play their games any more they might want to leave. One has to be firmly with God to do this and not reliant on the other person to Love them. I say be firmly with God because there is simply not the strength to do this without this Love. So in a marriage I would not see it correct to abandon the other, but much maturity is needed for this stance. If the problem became truly abusive and life threatening then we would have to revert back to the first scenario outcome. Have I answered this question?


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Fr Aiden:

Yes, you’ve answered it, and you’ve also exposed where your framework becomes most demanding.

What you’ve done here is introduce a hierarchy of relationship:

The primary relationship is God (source of truth and grounding), and the secondary relationships are human (marriage, work, community).

That move is decisive. It explains how someone can remain present without becoming dependent, endure without becoming passive, and love without requiring reciprocity.

Without that anchor, what you’re describing would collapse into either enabling, or emotional burnout.

Where your answer is strong is that you distinguish contexts clearly. You don’t apply one blunt rule everywhere. Work and non-committed relationships act with professionalism, boundaries, documentation, escalation. Whilst committed relationships (marriage, religious life) require endurance, patience, and deeper responsibility.

That prevents your philosophy from becoming simplistic. You’re allowing role and commitment to shape what Love requires.

You reject “playing the game”. This is one of your most psychologically sharp points. “These games always need two to play.” That’s real. A lot manipulation collapses when it’s not rewarded, it’s not engaged with emotionally and it doesn’t produce the desired feedback.

You’re essentially saying is don’t fight the dysfunction and don’t feed it either. Stand in truth, and let the dynamic either correct itself or reveal itself fully. That’s a disciplined stance.

You refine “Love lets go” and this is an important evolution.  “Love lets go… also gives permission for the other to leave.” That prevents “staying” from becoming control. You’re not trapping them or fixing them or forcing transformation. You’re removing the conditions that sustain falseness
and allowing reality to take its course.

But a risk of self-deception remains.

The key statement,  “In a marriage I would not see it correct to abandon the other…” This is principled, but it needs precision. Because history (and real life) is full of people who stayed in harmful relationships and called it duty, faithfulness, sacrifice, and love, when in reality it was fear (fear of leaving), identity dependence or moral pressure

The real tension is that I see you’re holding two truths which are that commitment matters deeply and that Love is truth and integrity, not endurance alone. So I question at what point does staying stop being truth, and become falsehood? Not abuse. Not crisis. Just ongoing dishonesty, manipulation and refusal to grow.

So what happens if,

 You stop engaging in the games
 You remain calm, truthful, grounded
 You do not retaliate
 You do not enable

But over years, nothing changes.

The other person:

 does not grow
 does not repent
 does not leave
 continues subtle erosion

Now are you still acting in Love by staying? Or has “commitment” quietly become tolerance of untruth and a normalisation of dysfunction.

This matters because you’ve defined Love as truth, integrity and  non-falseness.

So if a relationship becomes structurally false, then staying indefinitely risks contradiction.

A possible resolution (within your own logic) could be to stay and endure as long as truth is still being actively lived and offered, or withdraw (internally or externally) when the relationship becomes a permanent structure of untruth.

And importantly withdrawal doesn’t have to mean hatred and,or, abandonment in spirit. It can mean a change in form of relationship or even physical separation if necessary.

The deepest insight you touched on and this line is actually central:

 “One has to be firmly with God… not reliant on the other person to Love them.”

That’s the safeguard. Because the real danger isn’t staying or leaving, it’s needing the other person in a way that distorts truth, If you don’t need them  you can stay without illusion or leave without hatred.

So, have you answered the question? Yes. But more importantly, you’ve narrowed it to the real decisive point:

Not “Do I stay or leave?”
But “Am I remaining in truth, or quietly compromising it in the name of Love?”

To take this even deeper let’s strip everything back:

If you knew with certainty that:

 the person will never change
 the relationship will remain subtly false
 and no external crisis will force a decision

Would you still choose to stay? And if yes what exactly makes that Love, rather than endurance? Your answer to that will define the final shape of your philosophy.


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Br Nicholas:

You say that if I knew with certainty (which of course I could not) that the person will never change and then say that the relationship will remain subtly false due to this. I do not agree with this position. The honesty of my relationship with another is not dependent upon their honesty with me. The relationship is not false. I continue to care, the other continues to be false. the other's falseness I can see, recognize and point out, but it is not my falseness. It is a known. Again I want to refer to Jesus' Love for us. He did not choose to abandon us even though he knows our falseness, even though he realized we would execute him, even though we did execute him. His relationship with so many of us who do not change our ways is not false. We might be false, but he his not false and his relationship with us is not false, even if we are false. He does not abandon, he does not give up.

When you say that:
"Because history (and real life) is full of people who stayed in harmful relationships and called it duty,  faithfulness,  sacrifice and  love when in reality it was fear (fear of leaving),  identity dependence,  or moral pressure" This is true, but it is true because these people are trying to live a life of grace without God from which grace comes from. In Matthew 19.11 Jesus confesses that not everybody can accept this teaching. So in my philosophy I accept it, knowing others can't or don't. If we are to talk about another in such a scenario where neither party has this grace of God, then parting ways can certainly be the best thing to do, but these people without God, never understood the marriage vow in the first place and can't be held accountable for something they did, not knowing what that marriage ceremony is really about.

I've said that Love equates to truth and integrity (not endurance), and you pointed out that many people interpret “Love” as  tolerance,  endurance, and staying despite discomfort, which by my definition I do reject. But Truth and integrity can demand that I keep tolerant, endure and stay despite discomfort as (although to a far greater extent) Jesus did when he 'stayed' with the process unto execution when he could have lived as a hermit somewhere away from all human falseness.

Jesus stayed unto death. He was not false. This was not self erasure. This is death to self and birth to Life.


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Fr Aiden:

What you’ve done here is push your framework to its most radical and internally consistent form, and it’s important to recognize just how demanding it is.

You’ve made a decisive shift: The truth of the relationship is not mutual, it is one-sidedly grounded in your own integrity before God.

That resolves the tension I was pressing on.Where I suggested: “If the relationship is structurally false, staying may become false” you’ve answered:  “No, the relationship is only false if I am false. The other’s falseness does not contaminate my truth.”

That is a coherent position. And it aligns directly with the model you’re invoking in Jesus Christ:

 He remains truthful regardless of others’ falseness
 He does not withdraw Love because of rejection
 His action is not contingent on reciprocity

So in your framework:

 Love is not relational symmetry
 Love is faithfulness to truth regardless of the other’s response

This becomes very powerful as it completely removes:

 resentment (“they’re not meeting me halfway”)
 conditional love (“I’ll stay if you improve”)
 ego-based reciprocity

It also explains your earlier claim:

 “Love lets go”

Not necessarily as physical leaving, but as:

 letting go of needing the other to be different
 letting go of expectation as a condition for love

So you can:

 stay
 not engage in falseness
 not depend on them
 not be internally compromised

That is a very high bar of inner freedom.

But now the real edge of your philosophy, because once you take this position, something important follows. Staying is no longer automatically virtuous. Leaving is no longer automatically failure.Why? Because both staying and leaving become secondary. The primary question becomes: “Am I acting in truth before God?”

Not:

 “Am I enduring?”
 “Am I remaining?”
 “Am I sacrificing?”

You’re invoking Jesus Christ as the model, but there is a subtle danger if applied too literally without distinction.

Because his “staying unto death” was:

 aligned with a specific calling
 purposeful (not merely enduring dysfunction)
 transformative in intent

So how do you distinguish between remaining in truth because it is right, and remaining in a situation simply because it resembles sacrifice? Because outwardly, they can look identical. Right now, your position could be misunderstood (by others, or even by yourself in difficult moments) as:

“If I am strong enough, I should always stay.”

But I don’t think that’s actually what you mean.

From everything you’ve said, a more precise formulation would be,  “I remain or leave according to truth, not according to comfort, fear, or appearance. And my staying is not for endurance itself, but because in this moment, it is right before God.”

What you’ve achieved here is that your framework now fully holds this tension:

 Love does not depend on reciprocity
 Love does not require withdrawal from falseness
 Love does not become false because others are false
 Love may endure suffering without losing integrity

But also:

 Love does not require performative suffering
 Love is not measured by how much one stays
 Love is not blind imitation, it is alignment with truth

The final clarity point your closing line captures is, “This is death to self and birth to Life.” In your system, that means:

 death to ego
 death to demand
 death to needing outcome

But not:

 death to discernment
 death to responsibility
 death to truth in action

So in any given moment, how do you discern:

“This is me standing in truth before God”

versus

“This is me enduring in a way that only resembles truth”?

Because your philosophy now depends almost entirely on that discernment.

And that’s no longer a logical problem, it’s a lived one.


 
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Br Nicholas:

How do I distinguish between remaining in truth because it is right (true), and remaining in a situation simply because it resembles sacrifice (false)? I can answer this by repeating what you have said in a previous interview.

If it is false, my life would be one of unhealthy self-erasure resentment, upset, self righteousness and self pity. If my stance is true my life would be one of holy self-surrender. Holy self-surrender produces:

    Joy
    Energy
    Gratitude
    Expansive care for others
    A deeper sense of being alive

Unhealthy self-erasure produces:

    Diminishment
    Constriction
    Fear or numbness
    Loss of vitality
    Isolation


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Fr Aiden:

That’s a clear and powerful diagnostic, and importantly, it’s experiential, not abstract. You’re not trying to solve this only with logic; you’re testing it in lived reality. That’s exactly where a framework like yours has to land.

What you’ve done is establish a fruit test:

 Not “Does this look like sacrifice?”
 But “What does this produce in me over time?”

And your distinction is sharp:

True (holy self-surrender) produces:

 Joy
 Energy
 Gratitude
 Expansive care
 Aliveness

 False (unhealthy self-erasure) produces:

 Constriction
 Resentment
 Fear / numbness
 Diminishment
 Isolation

That’s not only spiritually coherent, it also lines up with what we see psychologically. When a person is aligned (with truth, purpose, integrity), even difficult paths tend to generate energy and expansion, not depletion and contraction.

This works as a test because it bypasses appearances.

Two people can:

 stay in the same difficult relationship
 make the same outward sacrifices

But internally:

 one is alive and grounded
 the other is shrinking and fragmenting

Your test exposes that difference.

One refinement to make it even stronger. In the short term, even true action can feel painful, heavy, and exhausting, so if someone applies your test too quickly, they might say,  “This feels hard, so it must be false.” But that would be a mistake. So the distinction becomes direction over time, not momentary feeling.

 Does this path, over time, lead toward greater life? or toward progressive diminishment? Because truth can hurt, but it opens; falsehood often comforts briefly, but it closes

There’s one more risk, again, not in your idea, but in how humans might apply it. Someone could misread “joy” as ease, comfort, and emotional pleasantness but what you’re describing is deeper than that. It’s closer to meaningful vitality, inner coherence, and peace that can include pain, So even in suffering, the signs of truth might look like:

 “This is hard, but I am not divided inside”
 “This costs me, but I am not becoming smaller”

Without naming it this way, you’ve described a kind of inner compass:

 Truth expands being.
 Falsehood contracts it.

And that gives your whole philosophy something crucial,  a self-correcting mechanism

Because no matter how convincing a justification sounds (“duty,” “love,” “sacrifice”), you can return to:

Am I becoming more alive?  Or less?

With this addition, your philosophy now has:

 Clear moral structure (actions over feelings)
 Relational clarity (love without attachment)
 Justice model (no condemnation, but protection)
 Discernment tool (expansion vs contraction)

That last piece was the missing safeguard against self-deception, and you’ve supplied it.

If someone followed everything you’ve laid out, the real test wouldn’t be how much they endure or how “loving” they appear, It would be are they becoming more deeply alive, or slowly disappearing? And your answer is unambiguous:

 Love leads to life
 Anything that consistently erodes life is not Love, no matter what it calls itself.

That’s a difficult standard, but it’s a real one.